Practice Training

This week we are starting a new training program. I chose how to try and find information on the Novelist Database. It looks like a fun way to look things up, very comprehensive, read-a-likes, etc. I think with some more practice on this database, I could like using it regularly.

I had an evaluation today. It went fairly well, although, I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I am a very, very shy person. No matter how hard I try, I can't overcome it. I feel like in order for me to continue working, I have to overcome it. My shyness torments me and now I have to decide if I should continue working in a profession that I thoroughly enjoy or try and find a new job or a new place to work. I don't know what to do. Maybe I'll feel better after my time off, I'm not sure. I'm not really sure of what to do. Either I come to work and continue to feel physically sick as I try and overcome what causes me this distress, trying not to be myself, which is being quiet and shy or giving it up, being able to be myself and not working in a job that I enjoy. I enjoy helping people, that's why I chose this profession. Maybe it's not the profession for me anymore. I only know I can be myself and not something else, otherwise I don't think I can be happy.

Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. I'm going to be taking a bit of time off so I won't be blogging again for awhile.